What i feel right now.
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6.7.12
I am very tired.
I need a serious heart to heart talk, but I feel that I'll cry so I better not.
What can I do to make myself feel better?
I do what I enjoy, but yet there's a bad side to it.
They want to see changes, but yet, I cannot give them.
These helpless feelings strikes so suddenly every time.
I am not prepared for this. I can't go past the barrier in my mind.
I just wish to go somewhere quiet and rest for a little while, a beach or a grassy field somewhere.
Somewhere where I can just sit back, lie down and just stare at the sky and flying birds.
I wonder if there's something wrong with my brain.
I seem to have frequent headaches.
Must be the computer, or the lack of sleep, or the piles of assignments.
I don't know why these shits were coming to me in the same time.
Didn't they understand how to make a line?
Didn't they never stand in the queue?
Didn't they never heard about personal space?
Why are they coming like i was in a war?
Okay, so pathetic.
I need to tell this, but i'm not sure i will be able to tell this to you.
You know, i honestly don't really care whether you ever read this or not, you noticed me or not, you cared or not. But one thing that you need to know, i never expect too much from you. But as long as the time goes on, how come you keep seeking something from me that you think you have to get, to make our relationship gets perfect, but you couldn't get it while i;m here, i really don't care about what you have or what you don't have at all. Eexpecting something from someone is not love. So, uhm when you expect something from me......fyuh. Okay, i know i'm too stupid and too younger to elaborate what love means. I know i need to get away to feel again and try to understand. But huhuhu i really can not, i always think about you, i still love you no matter what. I love you more than i love my oppas and unnies #tetep. I don't know why, but this love has dried up and stayed behind then choke on words i'd always hide. Huf otteokhae....forgive me.
Honestly, we need to talk, we need to talk face to face, not phone to phone. You're talking too much yesterday, and you didn't even ask me about my opinion. Please, set aside a moment of your time for me. Pleaseeeee huaaaa (That is if you read this).
Ps. michigesseo.